theflowerpetal

I just had to find out something i dont wish to find out today.

Is it that hard to trust someone nowadays?


Add colours to my life? No, it does not. It messed my trend of thoughts. I'm not thinking. I'm mentally drained.
What are you all playing?! !@#$%^&*()_)&^%$#@$%^&*. I heard what may be possible this morning, and it ruined my day/ week...
I'vent been a good friend recently, sorrrrrrry! Maybe sometimes i just tend to use work to escape everything

Just because- I’m quiet, doesn’t mean I don’t have a lot to say.
Just because- I appear happy, doesn’t mean everything is ok.
Just because- I forgive, doesn’t mean I forget.
Just because- I don’t listen to your problems, doesn’t mean I don’t care.
Just because- I’m stubborn, doesn’t mean I’m not easy going.
Just because- I don’t show my feelings, doesn’t mean I don’t have any.
Just because- I’m honest, doesn’t mean i’m outspoken.
Just because- I’m not like you, doesn’t mean i’m weird.
(taken from soulmate's blog)

Just ask, dont sit there and let your imaginations run wild

Best Friends Forever

Had a great chat.
We just have to face the fact that people changed. For me, i may think its better but not to you (all). I was reminded how silly one can be being ignorant. How i dont want to face anything. I may not have grown but my thinking changed. It was a long route back home, i wanted to recall it but i couldnt. I told myself that i wont subject myself to that EVER. I was screaming inside. Maybe its a short-term mindset, maybe a long-term. Who knows? Im keeping in, cos.. I didnt know it makes me unreachable or some sort. I dont know how to revert back either. Maybe as time goes by, everything fades:/

I didnt mean to do so but i thought it was clear. I'm trapped by experience

Recently, I made another choice. Speaking about choices, i suck at it. Its like i can tell you but i cant tell myself the same way. I think its obvious, i wont mention. I miss the old times :/ But it just feels different now. I really made the effort, but it just too tiring. I cant cope. X gave me 2 choices, choose 1 and give up the other. At first, i thought okay its a new beginning, now its getting abit sad. Should i say end? or stagnant? I dont like it this way, but i cant change it anymore. I dont think anyone can understand this but i just got to say it.


Why are you all always expecting so much from me?